It's not happy, but it'll get better....

[silverthorne]

All right...so.

Taking advice and the like, I'm starting slowly. There's a free online program through the health section of my employers' website...sort of like what they might have at Sparkspeople and related sites. So I went ahead and started that; seems the reason I got the email about the mental health services was because of an earlier survey I did (they're very big on pushing the whole heath thing on their employees...will even pay you for completing courses about it online or elsewhere). I reread the email, and then followed the link, and first page was pretty much 'you got sent this because a survey you did shows you may be at moderate risk for depression'.

Um...yes. Yes, that's right. XD
And yes, I did laugh when I read that (one of those 'no shit, you think?' laughs).

So, anyway, doing the online course, which involves learning how to 'elevate' my own mood (or at least cope with my bad moods without going internally ballistic or so depressive that I'd rather shoot myself then do something about it). Supposed to take a month or so overall, although I'll probably try and keep some of the techniques long after the course is done.

...I also realize that although this may help me in general...it won't, and probably should not be, the only method of help I get, so this afternoon will be when I go doctor/councilor/whatever shopping. Not so sure how that'll turn out, but...yeah. I can't wait on this any longer than I did when I finally left the ex, especially since I left that situation in the first place to get myself into a good place that I could stay in.

Anyhow, so there's my update.

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/_geekie_/]

*hug*

[cluegirl.livejournal.com]

Good. And thanks for letting us know what steps you're taking.

And also for your phrase "Counsellor SHOPPING" as well. So very many people forget that their therapist is supposed to be working FOR them, to their good. If the personality fit is bad, then you'll get no good from all of their education, but if you can listen to them, and if you can genuinely feel that they're listening to, and hearing you, then you can get worlds better just by talking it out with someone who has no investment in being your friend, and whose feelings are not on the line.

That's how I found it, and that's how Dominus found it too.
I recommend making a list of things in your life and personality that are non-negotiable subjects before you begin talking with doctors and therapists. In my case, I had to be sure that the therapist was not going to have problems with my bisexuality, my paganism, or my polyamorous lifestyle, because none of those things were on the table for discussion. So I had to ask about her opinion on all those things before I even decided to work with her. I don't want my shrink's hangups getting in the way of MY healing, you know?

[rebl1969.livejournal.com]

Yay for babysteps.