"I have been abused in my youth...I am depressive, and I have other mental problems as well. I do have extreme moments of 'nobody loves me'. Unfortunately, like my character, I have spent most of my life being outcast--the wierd kid that lives at the edge of town (and makes good target practice for throwing rocks at)...the shy girl who was just a little too strange to date. I've had everything from a man size an engagement ring on my finger and then give it to another girl, to being raped twice. I have had moments of love sprinkled in with the terror of living...but mostly I am familiar with the dull, aching grind that tells me "You will always be alone, worthless, the worst of humanity"."
unfortunately, I relate very well to this
Date: 2005-01-01 04:11 pm (UTC)