With the force of a sledgehammer...realization

[silverthorne]

For part of the reason I'm not already doing what I want to do for a living, never tried too hard, and am still dithering about.

I'm afriad of getting famous for it.

And my mom finding out/finding me/finding the press.

She has a big mouth and lies a lot. She'd be a PR nightmare.

...It makes sense. :/