I still have that 'fake' engagement ring...

[silverthorne]

The one with the zircon stone that belonged to the ex.

Been trying to think of what to do with it.

I'm going to give it back to her. In the time I've had it, it's been nothing but a reminder and a focus for, to be honest, all the worst things in my relationships. I don't want it, can't wear it anyway, and can't bring myself to try and sell it, give it to someone else, or, as I'd been thinking of doing the past month, doing something like flushing it down the toilet.

It seems right to give it back. And, I'll admit, a bit symbolic. As in 'here, I don't want you, your nastiness, or the bad, fucked up ju-ju your so-called love brings'.

It still won't bring my grandmother's ring back, and it's a less than ideal talisman against future relationship fuck-ups, but at least I'll be clean, if that makes sense.

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[silverthorne.livejournal.com]

Yep, it's already in an envelope marked with 'this is your ring, it's the zircon ne' on the outside. I'll be slightly cowardly and give it to her boss to give to her, but at least it'll get to her (also, don't want to deal with whatever emotional freak out she might decide to have over it).