silverthorne

All right...so.

Taking advice and the like, I'm starting slowly. There's a free online program through the health section of my employers' website...sort of like what they might have at Sparkspeople and related sites. So I went ahead and started that; seems the reason I got the email about the mental health services was because of an earlier survey I did (they're very big on pushing the whole heath thing on their employees...will even pay you for completing courses about it online or elsewhere). I reread the email, and then followed the link, and first page was pretty much 'you got sent this because a survey you did shows you may be at moderate risk for depression'.

Um...yes. Yes, that's right. XD
And yes, I did laugh when I read that (one of those 'no shit, you think?' laughs).

So, anyway, doing the online course, which involves learning how to 'elevate' my own mood (or at least cope with my bad moods without going internally ballistic or so depressive that I'd rather shoot myself then do something about it). Supposed to take a month or so overall, although I'll probably try and keep some of the techniques long after the course is done.

...I also realize that although this may help me in general...it won't, and probably should not be, the only method of help I get, so this afternoon will be when I go doctor/councilor/whatever shopping. Not so sure how that'll turn out, but...yeah. I can't wait on this any longer than I did when I finally left the ex, especially since I left that situation in the first place to get myself into a good place that I could stay in.

Anyhow, so there's my update.