...I want to whine.

[silverthorne]

1) This bullshit with the eyes is starting to piss me off. Make it stop. I need my eyes, for just about everything I do. Make it stop Right Now. Thank you.

2) I hate taking four days to color a picture when it used to only take me several hours. But I'll take that I'm at least getting it done. Just the hair on this one to go.

3) It's stupid, and I haven't given a fuck in years, because it usually didn't happen, and when it did, the attendant stress that came with it made it a horror rather than something to look forward to, but I'm...wishing I had someone sending me flowers or a card or something on the 14th. Doesn't even have to be roses....and then I think about Kon and his carnations and...yeah. Not good. Need to stop thinking about that right now or I'll be useless for the rest of the week. Over something that's essentially pretty silly.

3a) ETA: Doesn't help that Grandpa Campbell died on St. Val's day as well. Same year I fell through a pallet and twisted my ankle. God, that was a shitty year.

4) I really want my eyes fixed. I probably wouldn't be half as depressed if I could just fucking see.

5) Tomorrow is the first serious thing to be done at the dentist.

6) Um....*hugs* to everyone. Because...well...*hugs*

Comments

[chiss.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

What HAPPENED to your eyes? Was it reaction to makeup?

[silverthorne.livejournal.com]

Virus that I thought was allergies. By the time I'd gone to the doc last week, the virus had run it's course, but screwed up my sight. Taking steroid/antibiotics now to repair the damage.

*hugs back* thanks.

[rebl1969.livejournal.com]

*hugs backatcha*

Man, your eye! WTF? Did you say they had you on antibiotic?

[silverthorne.livejournal.com]

yeah. Still taking it. The left eye has decided it's its turn to act up, and although the right one is slowly getting betetr. now my sight is just plain blurry past about three feet (although they clear for a few minutes when I use eyedrops).

[rebl1969.livejournal.com]

UGH!
Hope it's better soon. Eyes are pretty important.

[mephron]

Alas! Even if someone wanted to do something like in #3, no one knows your address!

[silverthorne.livejournal.com]

A few people do. :)

*hugs* It's okay. I'm just doing the usual stuff that unconnected people do around this time of year. It'll be okay.

[rebl1969.livejournal.com]

If it makes you feel better, "connected" people blow off Valentine's day as well. John's got class that night, and I'm put out with all the fuss restaurants and the like make over the day...sick of it, I am! We're going to have a nice quiet Valentine's day with me at work and him at home with the girl, then I'll come home and take over parenting while he goes to class, and I'll end up surfing the web or watching a DVD or something until bedtime. You wait and see.
Romantic!! :)

[silverthorne.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I can see where the shine would wear off for you, especially since, according to some info I'm looking at, it's a 'special' day for another reason, too. ;)

When I worked retail, I was the same way. All the Valentines commercialism, combined with half-crazy consumers made me go 'eh' for a very long time.

My problem right now, I think, is just that my eyes are acting up (although they've gotten better overnight), and I've been going 'this is not where I saw myself being at this age when I was younger in regards to this'. And, of course, regret, because I can honestly say the first relationship that I voluntarily walked away from was the one I should have stuck with. And there is no hope whatsoever for it. Not unless the guy rises from the grave.

...Which would probably be a bad thing, no matter how you sliced it, you know?

Anyhow, I will be all right. I suspect I'm just going through all the normal 'OH MY GOD I HAVEN'T BEEN ALONE FOR 'X' HOLIDAY FOR THIS MANY YEARS! I'M BY MYSELF! WHAT DO I DO????' thing, you know? And the whole 'can't see shit' just added to it. :/

[rebl1969.livejournal.com]

And there is no hope whatsoever for it. Not unless the guy rises from the grave.

...Which would probably be a bad thing, no matter how you sliced it, you know?

Agreed. Zombie boyfriends probably aren't much fun.

You know, you could take yourself out if you want. Not necessarily on Thursday, but go do something nice for your new sweetie...YOU! Buy yourself an "I Love Me" present or something.

[silverthorne.livejournal.com]

Agreed. Zombie boyfriends probably aren't much fun.

Not unless we're in some weird Shaun of the Dead universe, no. Although, knowing Kon...

I could. I've been thinking about treatng myself to a massage for a few months anyway, so maybe that's what I'll do next Saturday. Let someone else work all my muscles out for me for an hour or something.